“You don’t need to know that right now.”

This is a phrase that I've repeated over and over in my head recently when I'm tempted to be overcome with fear, worry, or anxiety.

I had an ultrasound this morning for Baby #6, and it turns out the cord is growing out of the placenta all wrong, which could be potentially detrimental for baby's growth and development.

I need a follow-up ultrasound every 4 weeks until 30 weeks, then I will start going every 2 weeks. Ultrasound every time.

The doctor tells me that 9 times out of 10 the baby is just fine, and my situation just means extra ultrasounds to measure baby's growth.

I didn't ask what happens the other 10% of the time.

Why?

Because I don't need to know that right now.

All I need to know right now is that the baby is measuring on track as of today's ultrasound, I can feel her moving, and there is no bleeding or cramping.

Should any of those things change, I'll find out when I need to know it.

But today? I don't need to know.

What I do know is the One who does know. I know and trust in the God of the Universe who created me and He created her and He loves us more deeply than I can even imagine, He will orchestrate all things for His glory, and He will make me more like Jesus through the good AND bad of life.

And for today? That is enough.